If I Die

If I Die

The pain will stop

My memories will not exist

The dizziness will be a

Thing of the past

The noise in my head,

will be silent forever.

I won't have to be scared

of the things that I see

That aren't really there.

I won't be scared of leaving my apartment.

I won't have to worry about

Why I am frightened of your touch.

I won't have to worry about

avoiding looking at you when we speak

I won't have to take 40+ pills a day

I won't have to hide in my imaginary world

That only exists in my mind

I won't have to worry about

ever being hurt again. Ever.

Everything will end.

I will fade away.

You will forget me.

I never existed anyways.

11-2-2011