Daily Life

To wake up each morning,

To start the day anew.

If only I could sleep.

If only each day was new.

I repeat each day all over.

Every day is exactly the same.

Sometimes I wish my life was over.

I wish my life wasn't so lame.

Racing thoughts of things present and past.

Sleepless nights of days that can't last.

Dreamless nights when I do get to sleep.

Thoughts in my head, I can't whisper a peep.

Routine now for over 3 weeks.

Normality is what I really seek.

Suicidal thoughts seep into my mind.

Logically the soulution is the only kind.

Can I save myself from my  own doom?

Can I stop myself from my fated gloom?

I want a normal life to life for once.

To be sometime not so socially awkward for once.

I want to live without this suffering pain.

I would like to be better than I am.

4-15-2011