Uprooted again and Split in half
I'm tired of this shit, I'm filled with wrath.
Moved again, far far away.
Alone again, I spend all my days...
And Nights.
Endless nights restless and awake.
Fighting the demons that touch and caress.
Will I ever find peace?
Will I ever find serenity?
I'm doomed for eternity!
I'm torn in half between my delusional mind,
and the reality that it seeks to run and hide from.
It's much easier to live in my fantasy world.
Nothing I can't handle and I control most everything.
Don't I?
Subconsciousness is a BITCH!
Telling me what to do,
What to dream,
What to think,
When I think I'm in control!
Nothing can stop me now,
Because I don't care anymore.
Nothing can stop me now,
Because I just don't fucking care!
What am i supposed to do?
My pain stops me!
My racing thoughts trap me!
My PTSD consumes me!
My OCD controls me!
My DEMONS condemn me!
Nothing has changed!
Except I moved... again!
I can't escape this pain!
I'm in an eternal jail cell!
Never escaping the judgement of HELL!
4-21-2016
5:47am-f
